"There are a thousand thoughts lying within a man that he does not know till he takes up a pen to write." --William Makepeace Thackeray

Finally and really finally March is about to be over.
Probably it doesnt seem much different but maybe for those who are sitting by the desk would be a torment.(that you can't flip over to the new month)

You would be glad at April and probably May.
When June comes along,you panick. Whatever happened to Jan,Feb,Mar,Apr and May?What happened to 2005,2004 and 1999?
It's only mid of 2006,gasp!And I'm turning 22 next month. (Oh..that's me)
But after a week or so,you probably forget about this whole trauma and then cont'd wishing that July comes and you cant wait for Christmas all over again.

*shrugs*

So what would I be doing by end of 2006?
Planning to switch line maybe. To justify myself and my pay.
Or would I take a short break cos' I need a month notice anyway.
Again I would had my patience testing me then.Would I be kind to myself to take a short break?
MY job aint that bad, the location's not too bad,the office could be better but that is not priority,the people are most of the time nice and the best thing is no bloody OT most of the time too.
But again it already irritating enough that my pay doesnt justify what I did and I need new challenges...maybe.

It's a little too early to plan anything right now. I would re-evaluate the whole thing when the time draws near.
It's not ripe yet.
So I would still stick to my job - Getting others a job that pays higher than mine.
It's ok,no sacarsm cos' it only goes to show that I am so damn capable!
Fiak!

In a mere few minutes,there seem to be thousand thoughts blowing in my mind.
And when I regained 'consciousness',they fleet.
Guess I spaced out again.

I admit I think alot. Sometimes it's toxicating.
But again I depended so much on my own to submerge above the water to breathe, it's would be dying not to think.
Great,I dunno what am I talking about.

It's like on my way to work. I looked at the people and the thoughts on my mind were:

Long hair.Short hair.Wavy hair.Spikey hair.Curly hair.Bad hair.Brown hair.Red hair.White hair.Highlighted hair.Abnormal hair.Advertisement hair.Dirty hair.Ugly hair.NO hair.

Pink shoes.Brown shoes.Black shoes.Covered shoes.Heely shoes.School shoes.Slippers.Ballet shoes.Funny shoes.Sport shoes.Running shoes.Soccer shoes.Golf shoes.Damaged shoes.

Fat.Tall.Skinny.Anorexic.Bulimic.Husky.Plump.Obese.Tweety bird.Kong ba pau.

Nice eyes.Big eyes.Round eyes.Where's eyes?Brown eyes.Grey eyes.Black eyes.Normal eyes.Coy eyes.Sheepish eyes.(moi!)

Tanned.Black.Fair.Yellowish.Orange.(skin colours.)

Model.Model gone wrong.Trying too hard.Calamity.

And blah blah blah.

I reached office.

So long March, till 365 days again!

Losing count

Losing count of how many times I hear my friends telling me studying part time/full time is so stressful and I was left wondering should I feel happy or sad for myself.

Losing count of how many times I find myself wondering how my life could be less monotonous and how much more I wanted outta life.

Losing count of how many times I tell myself that Impossible is Nothing and drawing insipirations from real life cases,friends,stories and life itself.

Losing count of how many times I blogged literally in my mind on my way to work/home and always forgot what it was all about when I wanted to pen them down.

Losing count of how many times I already find the food I ate tasteless but again counting my blessings that I still have food to eat and munch them down.

Losing count of how many times I feel so old inside and act so young outside,just what am I all about.

Losing count of how many times I just feel so trapped,lonely and yet think that I am so lucky that I have the basic blessings at them,how one always contradicts another.

Losing count of how many times I lashed out my unhappiness for people of my age who enjoyed so much and complained so much,just like fuck it all.

Losing count of how many times I 'fucked' in blog and how many times I actually used it real life. (I do use it.)

Losing count of how many times I waked up wishing that I am sick so that I can take MC.

Losing count of how many times I wish,I wish,I wish.

Losing count of how many times I actually only 'waked' up when I am inside the train,inhaling the stale air with the uncountable ind-uhviduals from Dilbert.

Losing count of how many times I stared at the calender,the clock, the wardrobe and it never change,somehow.

Losing count of how many times I witnessed the dip of my balances like bad shares bought on bad times.

Losing count of how many times I feel guilty for not being able to help all the poors begging out there.

Losing count of how many times I think I could be a great Romeo if I'm a guy instead, or maybe Hitch.

Losing count of how many times I imagined myself snickering a *'s life and wishing it a downfall like the a big splash all the time.

Losing count of how many times I really wanna a damn good massage on my shoulders and back.

Losing count of how many times I and I and I and I and I and I and still me.

What the...
-_-?

Old Hunt/Lao Di Fang

Occasionally I would head to Central to buy Bean curb before going back home.
Somehow today I passed by one of the old hunts of my memories.
I don't usually passed by there or really very rarely these days.
I didn't stayed there when I passed by. It might be a lil' absurb to sit there alone,besides I'm rushing home.
But I did gave it a few seconds glance and left the place with a bittersweet smile.

Of cos' Eve wouldnt forget that staircase of S'goon Central as well.

=/

I hate March!

During lunch time...

Your Five Factor Personality Profile
Extroversion:
You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:
You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.(So true,that's Mich!)
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything


You Are an Espresso
At your best, you are: straight shooting, ambitious, and energetic
At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung
You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping(blah!)
Your caffeine addiction level: high (Blah!)



You Are a Chocolate Martini
You're an elegant drunk, who only likes the best bars and the most expensive drinks.
A bit of a cheapskate, you're likely to mooch ten dollar drinks off both friends and strangers.
You should never: Drink and dash. You're gonna get caught leaving someone with the tab!
Your ideal party: A posh celebrity party you crash, with an open bar.
Your drinking soulmates: those with a Classic Martini personality
Your drinking rivals: those with a Blueberry Martini personality
(Haven't really try before...)




Your Life Path Number is 5
Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.
You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas.
You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms.(uh huh.)
You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.(not necessary)
In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.
You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret.(Told you, being Spontaneous could be wrong sometimes.)
Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs.(Huh?)
You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused. (I wish!)


And Jason's...

Your Life Path Number is 4
Your purpose in life is to build your vision.
You are practical and responsible.
You work hard, knowing that there are no shortcuts in life.
You work for a better life for yourself and those you love, but you are not an idealist.
Trustworthy and honest, you also demonstrate great courage.
People can count on you.In love, you are a loyal and committed partner.
You are the ideal spouse.
You don't give up easily, and sometimes you can be too stubborn and unwilling to change.
You also can be too conservative at times.
You sometime miss out on good opportunities.
Also remember that not everyone can work as hard as you, as disappointing as that is!
(Haha..=x)



You Are French Food
Snobby yet ubiquitous.
People act like they understand you more than they actually do. (Oops..=x)

You Are Cream Pie
You're the perfect combo of simplicity and divinity.
Those who like you life for understated pleasures (Cream Pie...??)

Your Love Life Secrets Are
Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.
Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.
You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover.
You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back
.In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down.
You are able to weather the storm.
Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. ( I guess it's not that bad..)

You Should Be A Poet
You craft words well, in creative and unexpected ways.
And you have a great talent for evoking beautiful imagery...Or describing the most intense heartbreak ever.
You're already naturally a poet, even if you've never written a poem.(I Love this!!)



You Are Sunshine
Soothing and calm
You are often held up by others as the ideal
But too much of you, and they'll get burned
You are best known for: your warmth
Your dominant state: connecting


How You Life Your Life
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable. (So true..so blue..except for the third one..I think?)



Your Dating Purity Score: 86%
You are an innocent dater.
You're either lacking in dating experience or have had a long serious relationship.(The latter)
Either way, there's still plenty of fish in the sea out there for you to sample! (I also think so..Haw!)



Your Animal Personality
Your Power Animal: DeerAnimal
You Were in a Past Life: Panda
You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.
While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.(????)



Your Personality Is Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you.
You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships.
You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well.
You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.


You Are a Visionary Soul
You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker


Your Hair Should Be Blue
Wild, brilliant, and out of control.
You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.



ZzZzZ

3 more days,we count down.

End of March.
I cant wait for the month to end.
Somehow April just looks better to me.
May,even more so.

My back needs a good massage.

Once in a while,I would check up silly sites like Emode,Blogthings cos I have nothing better to do.
Some tests results muse me while some are kinda bull eye.
Some just made me irritated cos I dislike getting the same answer/result with...everyone.

You Are a Mai Tai

You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive.And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

Result: Mai Tai

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Pear Diamond!

You're personal style is a mix of classic and contemporary, reseved and outgoing.A pear diamond matches your charming personality - and is perfect to show off.You've also got an elegant side, which is complemented a tear dropped shaped pear.It's the perfect mix of Liz Taylor and Jessica Simposon - both wearers of this ring!

What's" Your Dream Engagement Ring?

Result:Pear Diamond

You Are 44% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

Your Ideal Hairstyle:

Layered Bob

What Hairstyle Is Right For You?

Your Monster Profile

Demon Slayer You Feast On: Tofu You Lurk Around In: Public Restrooms You Especially Like to Torment: Your Evil Twin

What's" Your Monster Name?

Your Scent is Key Lime

Sassy, real, and totally smoothYou're a total flirt who's always ready for a challenge!

What Scent Are You?

Result:Key Lime

You Are Brownie Batter Ice Cream

You've been known to lick *everything* clean

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

Result:Brownie Batter Ice Cream

If birthdates determine everything, I'm not one that you should watch up for.

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.
You tend to charm strangers easily.
And you usually can get what you want from them.
Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.
You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.
Your strength: Your charm
Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics
Your power color: Indigo
Your power symbol: Four leaf clover
Your power month: December

And for you, it does spells no one for you.

Watch out Donald Trump! You've got a head for business and money.
You'll make it rich some day, even if you haven't figured out how yet.
A supreme individualist, you shouldn't get stuck in a corporate job.
Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss.
Your strength: Your undying determination
Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle
Your power color: Plum
Your power symbol: Dollar sign
Your power month: August

With no spacings,I rant!

I thought I could be less sensitive and more assertive.
I should stop thinking of how others feel when they did not think how I felt.
Being sensitive of others' feelings is a nice thing but when it is not reciprocal,it becomes something wrong.
I am not asking that everything given should be return in a way or another.
But sometimes, some things should be vice versa to maintain the balance.
One thing that I am sick of is to think ahead what I've done would affect others or not and how they feel.
This is nice but it is(now) making me sick.
I am not saying that I am a 365 considerate person but at least I am for the minimum of 300 days.
I thought that I could worry overduely as whatever that happened couldnt be as bad as I thought.
Blame that way my life is.
If I think and prepared myself too graciously,I might have lose grip of my life by now.
Over sensitive or not. Clearly I have my own damn moods and feelings too.
It is not that I dont deserved them.
If I done things wrongly,I would have feel otherwise.
But if I dont think so,why the fuck should I care now.
Be wary,gal.
Yes...we all should be.
The Art of Miche. - Nonchalence.
That is what I should do now.
Fuck it.

Define depress?

What would cause you to be depress?
I came across numerous blogs and many a time(many a times/many atime/many atimes??), the root of depression of my age comes from failed relationship or heartbreaks simply.

Is that a sufficient reason to be depressed?
I do know that heartbreaks are big blows in life.
When I talked about being depressed,I do mean those group of people just talked about giving up their life all the time,but never really doing it.
(What a letdown.)

Maybe different people had different placings in life.
Thus losing different things do subject to different levels of torments and since we are all different,I may not understand how heartbreaks should be the reason of depress.

So I tried to understand but I couldnt seem to be kind enough to not look down of those people who are always saying that they are better of dead whenever bad times of a heart affair took place.

I walked through the streets of Bugis after work today. The temple areas.
There are so many people,old,poor,frail,foreign,sick,handicapped etc sweating under the hot sun just hoping to get a few dollars perhaps that could help them tide through another day. Just another day.

I'm not saying that they perhaps not deserve it nor implying that they do.
Perhaps comparing, they are still alot more fortunate than those in the poorer nations.
If I can,I would spare them a lunch box each.

I just feel that there are so many people out there struggling out there.
Life's definitely alot tougher for them than for us.
So what right, just what right does people like us who have health,home,family to complain that life is a kingdom of depression.

Maybe I don't know enough but what do they know more than me if they are constant whiners?
I even think that they are alot more fortunate than me.
They have the money to study without worries.
Their parents perhaps dont have to slog all their lives like mine do.
And there they are telling the world about how stress they are at studies,how love sucks and how life sucks.

It's ok.
It's really okay to complain once in a while afterall no one's life is a bed of roses in any definition.
I know I,myself is a top grade complainer about my life.
I envied alot of my friends cos' I just know that they owed alot more in life that I am never ever given the chance to even taste.
I do have my lapse of "depression" but then I am always aware that sunny,cloudy,dark,windy days are just repeatitive cycles of our lives and I will always stand on my own feet,count on it!

That's why people know that I am strong,independent.
Like hell I am but I know that I have to be.
That is but one of the only way to pay back the life you are given,isnt it so?

The past few entries are all about me blahing how great I think I am.
And you can blahed those off.

Cos' I really wish that I have more and given more.
But if I know..some are lucky,some just have to knock their own opportunities.
I would have dig for more diamonds if I havent learnt that the load on me is heavy.

So I am just learning to be grateful.
For I am among those who can appreciate the rainbow better after the storm and those who can perhaps survive through the storm no matter how battered I am.

At the very least I do self reckon that I am much better than those group of people I mentioned.

I do not wish them well.

I would rather wish the poor souls who struggled to survive well.

And now I wondered when can I ever come out with a decent entry that's worth some big notes.

I was often led astray by my own imagination and fantasization, and what's so bad?
One,without dreams and visions,live a life worse than the blind.
Except mine are almost superfluous ones. Haha.

I often thought...

I am not gifted in any areas or just simply normal.
I am not extremely beautiful or just beautiful doesnt comes close.
I am not rich or just I am not born rich.
I am not smart or just not clever enough.

I do have alot of shortcomings that made my life shortchanged.
Hmm.

That doesnt deny me of anything though,except I could do with more attention,more money and lot more privileges.

Life could be alot more but with what I have,I lead pretty decent.

To jump a notch higher. given those who had what I haven't a chance to make do what I have,I welcome you guys to fail terribly.

*smug*

So while I'm so much fortunate than many lives out there, there are always better off and I just dont look up to them.
Especially those riding on the heights of what wasnt planted by their own hands.
Geddit?

Now I know this is getting a lil irritating.
Ok,I'll stop.
Hehz.

Ah...Sweet romances

Before I begin, I woke up with this marked on my forehead - TGIF!
Though my Friday was still quite ZzZ but March is finally about to end!
Long March,we called it!

The thing I dislike about my job/role is the unappreciative parasites!
Just who the fuck they think they are?
Just because your mummy and daddy are rich enough to support you, you are not king.
I hope one fine day when it is your turn to step out to this cruel,realistic world, you will cry your shit out.
To shit with you. Shit!

Period.

Other than that I am quite fine still. (except that I could do with higher pay)
My desire to hit the sale and getting people jobs(especially those higher educated than me) give me the kick!
But again..that is just short term.

How long will I go on and how should I go?
Ah...Never mind.
Life's too painful and short to be bothered with such blah blah issues all the time.

Just get this straight, I am one strong and happy Mich down the streets and am doing better than most!
(Note. That fact or make believe to be fact doesnt keep my eyes open at all times in the office though. My butts are getting sore from sitting 8 hours.)

And then back to sweet romances...

As I watched the 7pm chinese drama, I suddenly get reminded of this.

"Gals do like older guys. Fantasization begins at teen!"

Haha.

Even thinking back, it's never possible for the older guys(and really older)to fall for a teeny,ugly you then.
But the sweet crushes then just feel so sweet now only.

Right now I have no shame to admit that I harbored a reallydeep crush on my Chinese teacher when I was sec 3.
It was so deep and so right that I dont qualify it as just a crush.

Shall not define what kinda style I had when falling in love, it's not that important now.

So right then, I would imagine everything about us finally becoming together.
My teacher shared the exact birth date and month as me.
Such lil' things that we had in common only led me to think that we were meant to be,somehow. Hahaha!

Of cos' there were so many things that I did and we shared as memories.
I am the type that write dairies and now blogging replaced it.

So a portion of my journal was dedicated to him and I still have it.
Sometimes I would dig it up and read.

You know it's over and sweet when you no longer feel the pain you had then.

Of cos my teacher wasnt the only one that is in my big box of memories.
Some...I would just keep and embraced them with good wishes and yesternight tears and smiles.

Whoever appeared in that box should be honored. Ha.

And sweet romances they once were.
Only that they are really beautiful and yet remorseful.

Real romances cant be as beautiful.
But true ones do have a happily ever after, I believe.

=)

A happy soul

It takes little to make me happy but it takes alot of myself to meet my own expectations.

I love to shop for bargains but I dislike those Big Sale days.

Always led by my own spontaneity in life.

Thankful for the things I have in life but find it unfair for others who just had it so easy.

Thought that I am acheiving,ahead in life but I am never far enough.

Always limited by the circumstances in life.

I should be happy.

I am happy.

For I really indeed stronger than them,luckier than most,and really capable.

I am just limited by the resources.

If I can afford,I would be even better than now and them.

I'm sure I will.

Happy 32nd month.

By this 32nd, we are already ahead than alot than those.

And I'm proud of it.
^^

Another situation you wish you would never be caught dead in

While Sherlyn and I went to get our morning bites today, she exclaimed that how fate loves to toy with one.
And when I listened to her,I thought that the Thai show- Shutter wasnt even half as scary/horrible.

I'm pretty sure that everyone of us would have at least fallen so hard for one person and it wasn't reciprocal.

You choose to bury the feeling down and let time fades it.

I dunno if guys are as sentimental. Or really they would get over it easier,better and faster when a new one takes over.

But for us(gals), such person remains forever special.
I guess precisely you are not/never with that someone you like so (so,so ,so) much, such feelings became so special, so heartbroken,full of regrets yet beautiful.

We called this 'An4 Lian4' in Chinese.

Of cos I have that someone.

The only wish that we have for that someone is that he be blessed with health,joy,peace and luck in his life. Memories are all we left of him and let it be.
Please do not come and break us apart even though just how much we wish to see him.

(*We/Us = Gals. Him = the guy we liked)

And so Sherlyn's case was that particular guy actually texted her last night and confessed how he really liked her all along.

-___-
My classic response was "Oh shite!"

I couldnt think of anymore to type cos just thinking of that kinda situation is worse than having a dream of yourself in Resident Evil.
Of cos' that's just a dream.

It's nothing right or wrong but it is just so horrible.
Especially if you are attached now like Sherlyn is.

Just imagined, that someone you gave your heart to, dream day and night, wanted so much to be with, and finally gave up to time, just comes back at the wrong time and do the wrong thing.

Actually I cant really concentrate now cos' this Shan Hu Hai song is too distracting.
The lyrics are good and the tune is as well.
The singers probably did it well but I kinda think that the Lara's voice is distracting and sharp.(or sharp and distracting.)

For me,I dont wanna go through that.

I can tell you,it would be as horrible as being trapped in Thailand now.

Shudders.

I will always miss him,I guess..somewhere.
You cant deny me of that and I wont.
But let memories sealed everything.
I just wish that things will be you and me now.

Life's blessings couldn't be more

But sure it couldnt be much lesser.

Like I couldnt be the best but sure I cant be any lesser than that.

There's alot more that I wish I could be granted easily or at least I do really wish that my parents are happy.

Some things are hard to change, hard to improve, hard to swallow.

But I know,I know...

That the very fact of me living,safe & sound,is already a basic blessing that I should start singing about.

At the end of the day,I know that I could be proud of myself.

Though it might be self consolation but indeed I am alot stronger and better than many out there.

I know I am.

And I need more!

Troubles come and go.
While I'm cooped in the ever packed train on my work(much earlier today), I wondered...
Could every single soul in the train feel as troubled?

Thank God that I'm not given the power to read everyone's mind cos' the world could have been much a depressing place to live in if I can.

While I'm sitting here,I just have to learn how to skate along and craft a beautiful note in my life.

Something's missing here

I know what it could be but I wish I know what/how to do about it.

I just left something somewhere and somehow it's getting more and more estrange as I move along.

Keep telling msyelf it's no big deal for what I am facing is just a dot as compared to the world.
I wish though that I could have more fun or learn how to.

Somewhere,somehow it had been tied down and like chaining a rock onto my feet,I'm finding it hard to breathe as the gradient I have to move increases.

And then I thought what could be so stressful about handling studies/projects, heartbreaks?
From the blogs that I read, all that seem insignificant somehow.
Maybe I dont know. Or like I am not entitled the chance to cos' all the troubles were replaced by loads.

I should have learn how to swim so I could take the pressure down under(the sea).






*Deep Breathe*



*dive....*


How I wanted to do more outta life but each day just runs me down and over.

x{

My simple pleasures

It felt great to walk freely and totally busked into the sunshine with a digi cam on hand.
Only then you felt like a true blue tourist in the land you grew up in, especially in those tourist spots.

So I shall begin my photo-blog.
I uploaded all the pictures I took today but of cos' I'm only showing a few cos' the rest of ME sucks.

We had breakfast at GoldenMile Tower.
I bought this from the long queueing stall. Seems famous.



After digging in, I just wondered why.


=}



To me, Shaw Tower doesnt even serves its' sentimental values.



Anyway we went to catch this.



People had been telling me how funny it was and how they laughed till they cant eat.
I'm telling you.
Bull-shite!

Not only the movie is so fucking damn lame,I dont even see what is the whole gist of the story.
I could hardly stifle a giggle throughout the show.

And so the cinema was weird as well.
We sat in Prince. It was big!But I tell you the whole arrangment of the whole theater is weird. They dont even have holdings for your drinks.
Wait..they have no counters/booths selling tibits either.
That is the only area I would recommend other cinemas to do so. Bringing in own tibits is jsut so much cost savings.


And so there were a few things that I could make use of outside the theater.

Like....


Wolverine's claws.


If you have no idea what I was doing, Jason suggested that I licked his claws.
Hmm..Cold.


And he just wanna take him down.

And then...


I found my love infront of me.
Kissing Cap.Sparrow beats licking Wolverine's claws anytime.


xO


Dont laugh.=+

When Jason left for his match,I decided to wander around.



People had been telling me that Ice Age was good. I'm not gonna watch cartoons and fall for the trap again.



Good gracious!I actually really forgot about the name of that hotel!!!Damnit.
Cos what happened was this old friendly English asked me what was that cos' it looked beautiful.
Funnily how I can catch on and coverse in that lousy fiak ang moh and we had a beautiful short coversation.
(Ok Hao Lian,I know I dont speak Briton's English but I dont speak FAKE English as well!)



There is he.

There's this unknown source of liberated happiness as I roamed around that district.
I felt foreign though I know my way inside out there.



Wondered if Aladdin lives there?
I need to loan his genie.

This whole Arab Street( I know there's alot of street names inside but I just lump them all into Arab St) looks really nice. But I telling you, you would die if you are thriving business there.
Whole clumps!I barely see any customers buying in any of the shops.
But again,maybe I'm not seeing things.
Maybe I should add new business.






Meowy.


Discarded toys.

The weather was so hot that I didnt stay long. Besides almost every shops looked the same.
Dying shops with abundant people walking around.
What irony.



Narcissism took place in the another funny old and seemly dying but not dead yet, Textile Centre's toilet.




You read enough?

Carpe diem

I almost forgot that there is ever such term till I came across it in one of the beautifully written resume(but fruitless to us) online.
Carpe diem = Seize the day and blah blah!

TGIF and my eyelid is still swelling.
I thought that should be a stop to current lifestyle. It's nothing bad but just lack of the kick!
I ought to be forking out some money to do what I thought I wanna do.
(If it doesnt involves money,I would have done long ago.)

So I told myself that...

By 2006,I must leave Singapore.(I wish for good.)
By 2006,I must look prettier & slimmer.
By 2006,I must speak a very 'fiak' ang moh.
By 2006,I must officially been clubbing and aim MOS.
By 2006,I must try to come close to $10,000 in sales. (My december marks a brand new of $6000 odd by sheer luck of my deal of 4000 bucks. I wondered when wil I close close again.)
By 2006,I must took so many good photos of myself that the album just cant load anymore that I have to create another account.
By 2006,I must owe 10 albums of Jazz.(all sorts)
By 2006,I must not look like I'm 22.
By 2006,I'm Ms Serangoon!


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As you can tell, most of them are rubbish.


It's more like by 2006,I would have told so many lies in work (cos' it's necessary) that I will win Pinocchio (now..how to spell?) in the Guiness World Records.

Oh..maybe a short term resolution is how to save my eyes and differ-fy them.

C'est moi.

(I know you didnt like seeing so many pictures of me but if you are reading this, go on.)

The Art of Miche - Narcissim

Yesterday

Today (Same Earrings)

(see my swelling eyelid??)

That's not the point. My point is later I'm putting pictures of my smudge eyes. Yes, I practically smudge them cos I just wanna see how it looks like. I didnt bother to draw nicely cos' I'm gg to bath.

Not yet but I like this one cos it's me so sian..

This is it. Dangerous looking?? Haha. It was meant to look hideous and really 'dao'

Trying to be smiley but I like it 'dao' better.

I told you the makeup was bad cos I just draw like a 3 year old holding crayon.

That was how I looked with another hairstyle and black hair.

People told me I looked different like that and younger...=( That's why I'm growing my hair now. Didnt realise that it's so difficult to get it long then short.

You know what looks nicer?

When everything is blurred like that.

Going to bath now..no make up.

It's not just 3 words...

On and off, there is this unshakeable (unshakable?) feel of loneliness.
I dunno why.
I dislike to be ignore neither do I like being in attention at all times.
I dislike to be apart neither do I like being together twenty four,seven.

I guess I just need more life and self motivation to kiss kick my ass!
I love people like Jules, Jade, Ming, Fyn and so on.

I aint dragging my feet to work every day but I am dragging my body leave the bed every morning.
I aint sulking whenever I work but I am not smiling whenever the day ends, not because I am not happy that work ends but more like there's nothing to be happy about either.

Sherlyn asked me on our way home today that if I have the gold, what would I pick up?
Ashley took salsa dancing lately.

I thought of my French lessons, my gym classes.
But I told her it was photography.
Yes...I love taking photos, be a narcissist!
I need good potraits that shallow strangers and I reckon to make me feel that I am good enough, nice looking enough.
And I know that aint important and extremely superficial but I need some recognition somewhere,somehow.

Recognition?
Is that what I need as I just figured?
I guess that is fairly important somehow, quite suddenly.
I think I craved for recognition since young cos' no matter how good I think I am,proven by facts or not,recognition for who I am, what I did is never enough to make me feel justified!

So is that important?
I guess I will have an answer someday,one day.

My dad now thinks I need some vitamins.(as well)

I guess that will do.
I shall get some Vitamin C tomorrow.
Or should I just get a multi-vitamin?
Multi vitamin = All the vitamins combined?

Feel sick today.
Flu.
Headache.
ZzZ.
Swelling eye lids!

I hate it when I dont look good.

Just who am I kidding?

Why is March so long?
Today's another draggy day. Even each passing minutes seem to drag their feet along.

I'm not doing very good but I thought that I did much better than some out there.
You dont have to agree with me like I'm not answerable to any opinions out there.

People can think I'm not earning much or my qualifications arent as mighty.
It's ok.
Really.

Cos I just know that I am helping those people with higher qualifications and whatever he/she comes from getting jobs. And they bloody owe it to me.

And I think I am much better off than those who aren't still doing anything decent just because their family or so doesnt requires their help at all, anyway.


I may be so energize-less at the end of the day but it's ok.
Cos' I know I am not doing just any job that needs me to report all the time, have my own authority, still earning decently and can afford allowances.
Why am I not better?

I guess it's really fine if you think you are any better or I'm not cos' not anyone can be as of comparision of me at my age,my background, and mostly me.

And you know, I may not be gorgeous but I think I'm decent enough.

Blah blah blah.

It had been some time since I took pictures with my crummpy handphone.





Sure it's crummpy too.

But it's ok.

I'm happier than you think I am.

Wisdom popping out

No pain, no warning.
I hope it stays this way.

Pretty baby stays this way.

(what nonsense am I spouting?)

Sunday usually feels good if I had ample sleep and good music.
The off side is that it lasts too short and then again, I dont feel that there's anything to occupy this Sunday.
So named the Rest day.

Monday's kinda daunting and I dread of having not much to do and then too much to do.

These days one of the common topics in office is the Brutality of Humans.
Nothing surprising.
I wondered if the world was ever simpler in the past? But then again, who thinks so?

My only concern for tomorrow is what to wear and how to answer for the unclosed cases by far.
Damnit!

Patience is perhaps the finest virture to take things far.
And how far shall I go?






=}

A small dream

I love looking at photos.
I would love to take photographs all my life.
I would dream of being a renown photographer.

Cos' time slips out so easily from our fingers.
It is the pictures that capture the moment.

If I dont have other commitments & responsibilities in life, I would save my money to take up photographing classes, buy good cameras and shoot around.
I would let my pictures tell the stories of their time.

Unfortunately...what I can do now is just to capture my moments of vanity & then the good times together.
May one day comes when we can both sit and smile at the once-upon-a-time pictures of you and I both.

That reminds me.
I gotta backup those photos if not I would really jump or make the person whose responsible for killing the pc jump.


Something tells me this is a place I would love to dine;p


Drinking is prohibited in the bus. He's staring at me though he is the one feeding.


I like the way he looks so cute today.


Definitely something about this I like. The best thing is this doesnt appeals to all.




Nope! It didn't worked. M.J wasnt inside you. Forget about air-walking.


And I present to you a case of shop lifting. xp














Hahaha..





The end.

If you think I am gonna load every pictures and show tell, go and sleep.


Hugges!